I have been here for a little over a month, how weird! I finished my COMS class last week so I have been free in the mornings. Turns out I prefer having free afternoons, note taken. I was able to pick my classes last week. Thanks to the college credits I took in high school, I am technically a year ahead so I am taking my freshmen year to explore my options. I do not want to rush my time in college, I have the rest of my life to work!

For the most part things have been going well, I can't tell if things have slowed down or if this is my new normal, either way I will take it! I can tell when days are going to be good or bad based on the dinning hall menu, taco days are the best days! I continue to make friends here and spend an absurd amount of time with them. I have been able to read two books since I have been here, The Vertical Farm and Citizen. Vertically farming is the future of farming and the book does a great job of proving that! Citizen is the KU common book, I finished it the first week I was here and I have been itching to discuss it since.

I am already very comfortable driving here, I may need someone to remind me of this when I come back in the fall with thousands of people... I am taking a pre-calc bootcamp this week and it has become a giant stressor for me. I already took a math course in high school and with the major path I am on I won't need to take another. I think you know you don't belong somewhere when both the teacher and TA ask why you are showing up. Answer, ugh.

I took a personality test in a few of my classes and in each of them I have been labelled as an extrovert, for anyone who knows me at all this is hilarious. I would have never identified as such, maybe college really is where you recreate yourself. I do think this atmosphere has allowed me to thrive, to finally be me. This new found confidence is soooooo great, but I am starting to notice that when others see you are confident they think it is all of a sudden okay to say rude things to you. Uh YES I am comfortable with who I am but NO I do not like when you point out how pale I am everyday. Also, to anyone who does this please no more. I have lived in this body for 18 years, it is not news to me that my face turns red when I am embarrassed and that I am sickly pale.

I continue to miss my family and friends at home. I also miss my dog and a full fridge... For the record, rice cakes become painfully old after your first three. All in all, I still love it here and I am sad that the summer academy is so close to being over. However, I am beyond excited to get back home and then go on a much needed vacation!

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